I recently did 21 days of self forgiveness on self forgiveness in the Facebook group Daily Self Forgiveness. And just before that I finished DIP Lite, my review for the DIP Lite course is here on Facebook for you to read.
What can I see here within what i've done so far that i'd like to show everyone?
Applying (1) self within a structure and (2) the reflexive property of equality.
(1)
I walked the DIP Lite course and I have realized the support in structure exceeds the effectiveness of my preferences, because a structure is usually designed with consideration to the integrity of the total design and a good structure has much to offer. My preferences for how I live have been developed haphazardly over time with little consideration to the total integrity of my self and how I am designed. Seeing my self within a structure designed with complementary consideration to each point within the design and the participant within the structure has been interesting. With a sound structure, you can rely on what is set up once you know or can see the integrity within it, and then you can live or apply your self within it knowing you are looking at something in agreement. For me, it definitely requires a hefty dose of humility walking with people and information that definitely knows better than I do. What I have learned to do here to resolve the dissonance or conflict between my preferences for seeing, doing, and otherwise living is to not trash everything that now seems inferior before the people and information who know better. I see my self as my preferences as one possible definition or interpretation to anything and all that I see as knowing better I will bridge my self to. I am committed to covering ground from my preferences (point a) to what I see that knows better than me (point b). But I cannot just pretend I am at point b because I see my self in agreement with point b. Even if point b makes all the sense in the world and I cannot imagine saying it any better, there is still work for me to go as I am here at point a and living my life from point a.
(2)
Self forgiveness is a tool one has to become familiar with by simply using it, as you would with any tool. An interesting point for me though was I hated this tool and everything that came with it. Although I could see that great things were being done with this tool and many people were fulfilling themselves with it, I couldn't imagine that for my self. My experience in using it was so dissatisfying and frustrating that I blocked it from consideration for years. I had to have some sort of conversation with my self about the tool itself, about self forgiveness' existence, and that's sort of what I did with the 21 days of Self Forgiveness on Self Forgiveness. Within doing this, I was not just writing about it - I was applying it to itself and in that also having that conversation I needed with my self about it. That was a pretty cool point to see because to just write out everything within me towards self forgiveness, I would not exactly be seeing it for what it is... but in applying my self in self forgiveness towards self forgiveness, it was like seeing someone the way they see themselves. The point is so simple but in doing this you can see when something agrees with itself - when something is equal to it self - by doing this. It becomes self reflective. I was able to see that what I disagree with is not the word but with all the things I didn't realize have nothing to do with this word - but like a bad rumor spread about your name - people will start to believe in that bullshit. And this is the case with self forgiveness - we all believe a bunch of bullshit rumors spread around the world and we spread those rumors as true, too. And in doing this we really never get to know the real substance in a name, just like a person - you never get to know the real person when you believe all the shit you had spread to you. And in applying my self this way with self forgiveness it was like going to the person directly about who they are - and allowing me to share and cross reference things, to then cross-out the rumors to get closer to the substance. And also, look for my self at why did I come here with rumors? Did I come seeking the truth of the rumors or the truth of the life/substance in the name/word?
One more point on both (1) and (2) combined.
When applying self forgiveness, I find it most effective to write or speak something out loud first to establish whatever my self honesty is in that moment so I can walk back through what I said or wrote to forgive my self out loud for. It is like stating my self to be clear so that when I forgive my self it is also clear what my reference is for the forgiveness, so there isn't a question of "what am I forgiving my self for? " - "why am I forgiving my self again?" - because here the answer is clear, the answer to those questions is in what I stated purposefully, clearly, to see what I can forgive my self for.
Thanks, this is all for now.
