Being contrarian in a world that's reversed: Day 13

This has come up in my life multiple times where someone points out how "anti-everything" I am, even the simplest of things I sometimes have a "that's bullshit" attitude towards. I want to write on this for a moment because it's somewhat integral to my life.

Why do we accept everything as it is?
Why is it questionable when we dissociate from this?
What does it mean to go with what others think if what I think is also what they think?
What does it mean for me to go with what I think when I don't know where I got what I think?
What does it mean to think I think for my self and who do I think I am that has "original thinking"?
Is what I experience in the world coming from me?
Am I going against my self when I feel resistance from others, my mind, and this world?

I accept most things as they are presented to me so that I am here with others, so that I show I am here with the picture presentation as my self, that I am not in conflict with the "reality" before me.

"The difference between someone who is sane or insane is the ability to accept the world as it is imposed on you" - U.G. Krishnamurti.

Working with the world as it appears is important, but none of this is what it appears and because every part reflects the whole... how is any part of the whole what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to believe..? Looking into everything that is "to-the-contrary" leads me somewhere much closer to the way things actually are.. because this place, who we are, what we are in.. is not as it seems. Trespassing on every definition of a word defining this existence is helpful to me, because as useless as it seems to the way things are... it is going to show something "off-limits", and reality is quite "off-limits" to the mind we live in daily.

What if contrary isn't what we think either? What if all the contrarianism supports the way things are... and in what way does it do so? If everything as it is leads us away from ourselves and into all sorts of different worlds than the one we are in... trying to create this and that as a "better tomorrow" instead of showing us what is already here and the potential within us as we are here. Isn't that up for an investigation as it's a form of futile escapism? I don't believe in the definition of reality as the picture presentation or the underlying "sounds" in-forming this 3d animated picture we believe so much about.

This is a frustrating experience of unearthing over-due "doubt" which underlies all belief. We have lived our lives clinging to a specifically placed rock of knowledge and information practically drowning in all the evidence that we know nothing and the indications that "something is up". An obvious but elaborate hoax is the condition of humanity and we have a long way to go in undoing the con of our consciousness,

This does nothing for the way the world is and great things for the way the world can be.

How little seems to help: Day 12

A reflection on how my self application is experienced recently: The little things help and sometimes that little is barely enough to get by, but barely enough will eventually become more as little begins to bear enough. Little shifts in things, like the way my title sounds as if i'm about to expand on how nothing seems to be working but if you look at it from a slightly different perspective... i'm just examining the words "little" and "help", how they appear in each other and how they appear in my life.

In the spirit of this blog title, I want to give to my self a little help that may seem like nothing and neither at all at first, but is precisely the support I require and more. A little help that can help me bear enough when I feel I am barely getting by:

MY Words! Look at my words! The little helpers, holding-signs, holding my power and my life in my writing.. my thinking.. my speaking.. my memory.. in my eyes as I read and in my ears as I hear..
They are so obvious and yet obscured out in the open.
These signs and their nature, the signature.
Signs helping with direction, helping with location, seeing where I am at..
And within what words I see, what I have signed up for and signed off on is apparent to me.
MY nature, MY sign, MY signature is within all that comes up.inside ME as MY INWARD WORLD - the IN-WORD reality inside the embodied and living WORD/NAME Jonathan.

Signing off, Jonathan.