Let's get down to BUSINESS: Day 7

 Inspired by this blog on business

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate facing myself within the word business as my programming/lack of programming about business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set myself up for failure by expecting a business to just come along and change my life, thinking/believing I would find a business that I do automatically like it was second-nature and become an instant success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire instant success without having to do anything for it and for me to be a naturally born business magnate and success story.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my business has to be BUILT with my own body, mind, and being and that it was NOT already preprogrammed into me to the degree that I could make it happen and function immediately and that a business does NOT appear and function immediately anyway - it is built daily with specific actions and focus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on building my business because I suck at it at first. This is/was the most likely scenario and although there is a chance that anyone can be a natural, avoiding certain failures and mistakes most face from the beginning.. that is not the rule, that is the exception and one should plan around the rule as a rule.. because counting on the exception is desiring to be special and counting on something that wasn't planned for. Nothing in my environment or upbringing was designing me to be the exception within starting a business where I wouldn't suck or fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up within myself, in a emotional/mental dimension, and to then pretend or project the opposite while suppressing the feelings of failure/defeat/giving up/whining within me so that I can still be part of the business in hopes that something within me will change if I stick around long enough. Nothing will change if I do not and my experience won't change if I just hang around waiting for someone to help me up because only I can STAND UP within myself and stop accepting/allowing these feelings and this energy experience of giving up/defeat/failure/whining/etc that stop me dead in my tracks from ever building a business or giving this another 100% all-in committed action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that this is how most things go, where hopes/expectations/plans are met with a different reality, sometimes vastly different, and it is up to us to adapt to the reality - to change with the feedback we receive..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beat myself up for not performing as I had hoped to or expected and to be the very reason why I can't/won't do it / be able to do it / feel like I can do it because I am beating the confidence out of myself while beating out the perspective that regards reality and the process I have to walk to be effective and confident within building my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist doing something because I know I will fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed failure to be the point at which I stop, quit, or give up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop, never start, and start to give up at the first sign of failure.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do something, like build my business through putting myself out there and closing someone, pitching someone, talking about it to someone even though I know I will fail or get rejected or have a hard time doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed about where I am at in my business with my results as the numbers of pitches/presentations/sales I have with how long I have been part of this business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bring myself down and to remain fallen, emotionally abusing myself and limiting myself, stopping myself from ever building my business again because I failed and continued to stay in that failure, having given up and refused to put myself out there again and again to face the points I needed to face - that I could have faced earlier had I forgiven myself then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in what everyone thinks of me, making up the majority of the judgments about me that I believe others to be holding of me, especially because I never put myself out there that much to even know what people actually thought of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear finding out what people really think of me by putting myself out there, which is what I see I should do to build my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what I think everyone thinks of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what I think they think of me despite what they tell me they think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see myself through the thoughts/beliefs/opinions/feelings within my own mind which tend to exaggerate and charge things in such a way that I am simply in a drama/trauma response.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to obsess and focus on what people think about me and figuring that out instead of doing what is best that would lead to success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to mind-control myself as others as a form of government for my behavior, to not break any social rules, to suppress my expression and my potential, and to keep me from doing anything outside the box of what others might think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people as my business depends on people, so how will I ever build a business if I am not facing my fear of people and eliminating that from the equation??

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on people instead of my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on money instead of my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen to me if I focus on my business and no longer focus on people or money and the fear of them both.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe my thoughts about other people are accurate, especially the thoughts I project onto them about me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people finding out or knowing that I am not as perfect or successful as I seem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my fear of being imperfect or a failure onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that no one will do business with me if they find out I am not perfect and successful beyond what they have been able to accomplish.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set expectations of myself within business that did not take into account physical reality and my specific starting point with all my preprogramming up until this point, which had little to no existent success programming when it comes to business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize I wasn't born into the elite or into a family or environment that taught me business or the mentality to create one.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that how I feel about my business is how everyone feels about my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that how I feel about my business is how everyone feels about my business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I project how I feel about my business and that may influence how people feel about my business, but they in themselves do not feel how I feel about my business - they mirror my programming and what I am accepting/allowing within myself as business / about my business.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for my business as myself within myself, meaning that I take responsibility for how I feel/think/see/react/imagine/act within my mind/body when in front of the reflection of my business / looking at the word "business" or "my business". It is here that I see the content of what I am actually communicating to others, what they are receiving about me/my business when I am in front of them, because within me is all that I have accepted and allowed as this word/living expression as "business" or "my business".

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for understanding and creating the business mind within me, equal and one, that I can also create a business externally simultaneously.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself all that it will take to create a business as myself within and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my limitations to prevent me from building a business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot build a business, that it is impossible for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear upsetting people with what I do for business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conflict with other people while building my business, where I may lose a potential customer or gain a shit talking enemy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being the bad guy as defined by other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear hurting people's feelings with how I do business / how I build business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate business with taking advantage of others in an abusive way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking advantage of other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear building a business, becoming a businessman, and what I will have to do to become successful within my business/as a businessman because I already, automatically think I will have to do evil shit to make the money, to grow the business, and to persuade people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed conflict within myself as morality to limit me from ever moving myself effectively within life, within business/as a businessman.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate MORALITY as LIMITATION and CONTROL whereby I seek permission from some belief system / external system telling me what a "GOOD PERSON" does and what a "BAD PERSON" does and to avoid that.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that what is acceptable within the system as rules/laws is different than what is acceptable within morality as judgment of good/bad which is often personal/social sensitivities that often have no bearing on reality or what happens to you in the system - whereas what the system prescribes as rules/laws will have consequence on my life/my business if I do not observe and adhere to them.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to challenge morality within myself that limit me from acting effectively in common sense and to study the law/rules of the system that I may be effective within building a business to make money.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to go through the necessary internal/external setup process of building a business as the research and resource acquiring to name my business, prepare for eventual taxes, to take advantage of any benefits offered to a business, and to understand the rules of how I may apply myself physically to build my business.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to understand what it takes to build a business.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed the realization that it takes consistent, persistent effort and clarity to build a business.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the value in building a business and creating money,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define building a business as miserable, boring, dreadful, and scary.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that in order to build a business, it is not about becoming something I am not, but about letting go of what I have become and what is holding me back from all that I already am.

"I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to really let go of the memories that I have held on to, and compiled as the 'truth', from every time I have failed, in business, in life, in a game, in relationships, etc, not realizing that it is me holding onto those memories that is keeping those failures in tact, rather than turning all those failures into successes and learning what I needed to learn from them, applying them now, and being successful NOW."

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to let go of all my memories which have defined me up until this point that echo back to me how I will never make this work, I will never be able to build this business, I will never make a sale, I will never become the businessman I had hoped to become, and I will never have millions of dollars because look at my memories and how many times I sucked, didn't do shit, never got around to it - etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I will never be able to sell because I haven't sold anyone yet, which isn't true because I did make one sale and I almost made another... I haven't done that many presentations and I haven't practiced enough to be any good at it.

Continuing in the next post....