Realigning the Star with Life: Day 7

In the Star I see that I have accepted and allowed life to become an idea of what could be rather than what is through abdicating my greatness into a dimension of irrelevance with regards to the earth I live on. Above and beyond the earth, like an act of spite, the Heavens are Out-Of-Reach. A place of wonder and mysticism, with spiritual superiority to the earthly body. Life is fated by the Stars as we've let them be the map of the earth, but the Stars above just like the Stars below are indifferent to the plight of those beneath them. According to the Desteni story, this may not be the case with the Actual Stars anymore.. but that programming is still there in human consciousness. 

What is the point in becoming a Star if that power they represent is not (re)presented in all? The light isn't 'up-there', it is Here. We haven't found the Stars in ourselves, so we defer our fate to their placement. 

Like the "lighthouse looking for the light" analogy. Who are we waiting for? Why give so much attention to external sources to shine the way? 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself as a Star to shine on all the light of life that each may realize themselves as life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to guide each one in my constellation, my line of sight, to become the Star themselves.. so they can know the excellence of their self expression as one and equal with/as life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed Celebrity Stardom to define what it means to be a Star, which is in Self-Interest Only, causing a massive conflict in the universe where each one is in competition for the resources of the universe to rise above everyone to be MORE special than everyone else. Within that, consequences throughout the ages ripple as everyone compares themselves to each other.. losing their light of life, their potential, as we separate into lonely little orbiters. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there are more Stars in the universe than grains of sand or human beings on earth and that it is not a point of comparison or competition in who we are to be a Star... we can be a universe of life excellence, shining examples of self-expression when lived to the utmost potential. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed the challenge of becoming a Star of Life because I want what I want and my self-interest is more important than anything else.. so instead I pursue a Stardom where who I am is the center of a galaxy, like a master/god/guru in Heaven.. rather than equal amongst the constellations, organizing myself to the benefit of life here next to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the expression of a Star as the people who have excelled in their fields of knowledge and information.. that have applied themselves to the extreme and networked + amassed a galaxy around them that looks to them for guidance in their trajectory, their expressions..

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that there is more to a Star than the negative projections I have placed on them in spite because I have accepted and allowed less for myself than they have in this life. I would have wanted that and done what they did, too, if I was in their position with the same opportunities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those above and beyond me in what they have accomplished because it eases my ego to chop them down to size... my attempt to "equal" them through demeaning the life they've lived.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the comparison and competition within my mind that separates the Stars from the rest, instead of forgiving all in creating a way forward for a life as equals. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have given up on my potential and abdicated the responsibility to actualize that to the Stars, manifesting what i'd like for myself as another who would "take it all the way" in their life in becoming a shining example of self-expression.. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed responsibility for the inferiority in relationships to Stars and all they represent, because as the programming shows.. in doing so I have placed an ability, an access, and expression "out of reach" from myself here.. 

Star Irrelevance: Day 6

From my last posts, this dimension of irrelevance has stepped forward.

The stars are irrelevant in that their influence on our mind is to further mislead and mystify us.

In the Desteni discord I said, ‘all the problems that come up in the Star are what is solved when we define/redefine/live the Star’

So, the problems are that it’s all mostly knowledge and information as entertainment for the mind to feel special, to feel powerful. It’s spiritual, mystical, other-worldly, ‘out of this earth’, esoteric, and that stuff is very enticing to the mind… but what does it deliver?

At the end of this, I want to bring it home. Place it here. To show it in a way that it’s in my human body, that’s accessible to all, that it begets another Star. A non-image based understanding, something I can feel and know in myself.

For now the star is a point to consider as a reminder, a goal. In that, it is a guide I place as myself for expression. The journey to is through this crap.

—-Self Forgiveness Statement —-

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to face my disdain and disillusionment with the Stars as the celebrities and the mystification of night lights, where I just see/feel the bullshit and don’t want to hear it or think about it, but at the same time I know there’s something to these things as I’m enticed by it from time to time..

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to sort out my relationship within the word Star and the constellation of words that come up looking into it.. such as Celebrity, Fame, Specialness, Power, Mystical, Knowledge, Secrets, etc..

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand how I have separated myself from the Stars where, for example, I have this experience from writing about all of this that could be put into statements like, ‘I don’t want to bother with this.’ or ‘this is all bullshit’ or ‘this was designed to distract me’… as I look closer at what’s going on in all this information it’s like realizing the life of a celebrity behind closed doors is actually very dysfunctional in exchange for their stardom.. the sacrifice of substance/life to achieve all of it is grosser than most realize.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the reality of a Star in our current definition is not very positive and all the great things we project onto them is actually an ugly truth as well.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider all that really exists within us as the Stars and the becoming of a Star, that is really who we are, that is not just the positive, dreamy ideals we know as the picture presentation of their existence.. which is a fraction of what is really within and behind the existence of a Star that we take for granted.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to extend that consideration to myself, where the positive presentation of myself that many people know takes for granted all of who and what I am behind that which is not seen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in all the irrelevant information and knowledge that feels so interesting and special to explore as I seek out the ‘power of a star’ or the ‘key to living star’ in the network of knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be Starstruck by the Stars, unable to see the reality and way forward within the Stars as I’m stupified in amazement by the expression I’ve consumed like a drug to get starry-eyed on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in infotainment, where I put on a show of the stars by showing off what I know about who we are as stars.

Star: Day 5

 There was a point within this EQAFE audio on Words about how we accumulate information, where we get to feel superior in the energy of being knowledgeable. We experience reactions from others when we aren't equal to what we're sharing, though. We don't know how to share about the talk we've walked and we also don't walk the talk that often (despite what we think).

"...beings will immediately react to or disregard anything that is seen to not be able to be comprehended or incorporated into their minds, in their self interest"

The point that's made is to share what we have lived because that is practical and of substance and entice the mind. When we share what we lived, that is always more practical for another than talking about the latent information that has yet to make it's way into some act in our lives.

Looking at the word "Star" I can see this point immediately within all that information/knowledge inspired writing I shared. It's me playing with the images and relationships in the word as an artistic display to see what it could mean when lived. That is the imagination, the playing of pretending. 

In a way, this is what we're living when it comes to 'being the best' though. This is what I can see in myself that may be true for everyone else. We elevate ourselves in our mind and lose touch with reality. We separate ourselves into higher and lower expressions. All that is great becomes celebrity icons that we perceive to be living our dreams. If we happen to be living their life, we separate ourselves from those who look up to us in want. Just a constant inequality of the mind that in it's nature is not real.

The "stars" we know are not what we think and that's demonstrated often when the curtains are pulled back. We as the stars have failed in guiding each other and organizing ourselves into a constellation of equality where all are living their potential.

The "star" celebrity on earth actually gets much of their light we see from us. Many are shining their light on top of the celebrity.. and that is reflecting what is existent in our mind/consciousness back to us. What we're seeing is our reflection as we are shining the light back onto ourselves in the mirror - if we can only recognize this. They do not become exalted or elevated without the masses placing their attention on them for their self-expression. Instead of appreciating and integrating in ourselves what we see in them, we sacrifice them for entertainment to our screens.

Eventually we burn each other up in this creation of a star as what is really being sacrificed is our attention/presence/time/physical resources to experience the entertainment as an energy for our mind. It takes massive amounts of physical resources to fuel the life of a star.

I forgive the Stars: Day 4

 Based on my past few days of writing on Star, here is some Self-Forgiveness Statements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in the myriad of magical information and knowledge that is spread out among the galaxy like the stars, entertaining all the fascinating feelings and fascination with witnessing or becoming a celebrity. None of it here as self on earth where it makes a practical difference in my day-to-day, moment-to-moment experience where I can place it into action. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my self expression and it's potential through/within/as lots of energy, where I could see in exploring the word Star as myself that a primary point i'm facing is how it's defined by this energy, this light, the 'out-of-reach' fascination with my 'my best life' being like a distant point in the sky or inside the form of a celebrity where I project all this positive feeling.. like once I live this or become this it will be a high of highs, everything I could dream of.. 
It's in that, I see self defined by an image detached from reality. I'm receiving a limited bandwidth of the actual reality of that expression but painting it to be a destination and a defining point for my whole existence - the light at the end of the tunnel is to become a celestial celebrity above everyone. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from and judge these celestial celebrities living in versions of heaven once I realize this separation and that I have been relating to them in comparison where I am the "have not", so then I demonize them instead of standing equal to them to actually understand the solution in/as/with oneness and equality of our self expression.

Placing the Stars within myself to forgive as them (realizing a prominent association with Stars for me is Celebrity):

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self definition as a Star to Celebrity-Status, where I know myself by the numbers of people that know my who I am/what I do/what I have... therein I am temporarily known only as long as I can keep their attention with the specific expression that enticed their mind in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the experience of having All Eyes on Me as the Shining Star Celebrity, where all energy is moving to as people react to me in their mind.. comparing themselves to me.. competing with me in their mind.. while I grow in popularity, gaining money, a following, and possessions because they are giving me attention and with that their energy.. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I am without All Eyes on Me, as i've given up so much to become somebody, to become a Star, a celebrity, that without the act.. the performances.. the preparation.. the recognition.. the following.. I feel like I am invisible and a nobody. Thus I lose all the great things I have or did and fade into irrelevance. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fading into irrelevance and becoming a wash up, a has-been, and no longer being known for the peak of my career, my expression, my domination of minds in the world consciousness... where if I am remembered at all it's for who I was - not who I am - and who I am is judged in comparison where i'm always a "lesser version" of my self now that I do not have the money and fame.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider these points before facing them for real because within this experience of the life of a celebrity is something I have faced in general with my own goals, endeavors, and network of people. With the desire to rise to the top and then the fear of falling once I have began the ascent. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider the point of consistency within a star that does not fail which is mass accumulation, or 1 + 1 even before the lights came on and the sun started blazing... the formation was through bringing it all back to self, taking what is here, integrating it and expressing self. The work we're known for is what we did with what we had and bringing out the best in ourselves. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming disconnected/detached/separated from the reality of/on Earth in the process of becoming a Star where I see the potential is that I distance myself from what is here to "Live the Dream" and Ascend to my version of Heaven where i'm constantly Celebrating as a Celebrity without a worry about what's happening on Earth... because that is the problem with what we experience in relationship to a Star is that it's NOT HERE.. so Heaven is still going on somewhere else in separated rooms/spaces.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a separation from myself in heaven, where ever that may be as the many versions I accepted, from myself here on earth.

In the beginning was the word Star and the word Star was God: Day 3

Self expression of the highest order.
In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God.
It is with our Being that we Begin.
Because in the beginning was the highest order of being, that which gives light.
The Spark of life, it all starts in the star.
The smallest of interactions within, emitting a variety of frequencies we can see and detect.
What about us? Where is our light?
"And God said, "Let there be light: and there was light"
God, the highest order of being, is our word.
Is it possible the word creates light?
Is each word not like a Star with a different frequency? 
Am I not a Star whose interactions produce a guiding light?
With each word, can they not "see what I am saying"?
I am the word embodied.
In my presence and my expression there is meaning, through which life is gifted.
I express my self above and beyond what is perceived possible, so that I might fully align with my highest order of being and rest among the Stars in excellence.

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I wrote this back in 2016 after having explored the word Star for multiple months. You will notice repetitive elements as I have hammered in on the relationship between beginning, being, start, starting point, etc... this is related to the persistence within Desteni to always check your starting point in what you do... and I see expanding on this again and again is useful because we're looking to Birth our Expression as a Star on Earth (practically bringing heaven here through each individual).. so I do this to expose more relationships in the word about that point specifically. We have to initiate the beginning and that requires articulation to understand the movements.

Here I was able to see that the Star is in line with the Living Word because of that relationship with God as the Word where this point of Creation begins.. as Words are a Key to Creation.

The purpose for underlining so many words was to emphasize the relationships and their proximity to each other. The last part of the writing is an inspired understanding of "the message" in living the word Star.. above and beyond, like the stars.. what we perceive is possible in "reaching for the stars", so that I may express the excellence of being/life.. given, the context here is we're aiming to align with oneness and equality so this constellation is sorted out and the "guiding light" is conducive to life, to others self-realization.

A little more context for understanding; 
A word, that which means something and gives definition, embodied would have a presence and expression that gifts that.. so the life I am, live, and have is gifted who I am.
A gifted individual inherently is Star or has that Star Potential.

Excel in Expression and SHINE/SHOW!

Starburst: Day 2

Starburst refers not just to the candy but to a type of galaxy where stars form at a significantly faster rate than others.

It happens because of their proximity to other galaxies typically and the interactions that triggers.
A catalyst is involved. (How can we catalyze each other?)

The essence of a star and how it begins, though, is just Mass Accumulation.
Inequal distribution of the space gas causes a gravitational imbalance where the star begins to take shape.

Long before the blazing light, the process is unseen as many pieces come together in relative darkness and silence. A patient life of obscurity precedes the celebrity status of a heavenly body.

If we place ourselves before the beginning, we are undefined. We’re like air waiting to be sucked into a body. We’re pulled together as many people, many places, many events conspire to bring us into being.

The We becomes Me.

I, the individual, emerge from the group;

the Mass of the Masses.

1 + 1 + 1 + 1….

a Child appears and a Star is born

Beginning with the Light of Life as the Starry-Eyed Child.

The Sparkle, the Fire, the Twinkle in our Eyes.

Shameless, Celebrated Self Expression. An Innocent Wonder.

Gifted with All the Potential because we are New (Interesting fact: Nova means New).
Everything in Existence has Given this Being. Lead to this moment.

The practical aspect here that is equal for all is the cumulative phase, the consideration (you should consider clicking that..) of a mass of influences that unite us into/as individuals. One is an expression of the allocation of All. 

My beginnings, your beginnings, are a rewarding of life from the constellation of beings that contributed to ours. We didn't get here alone and we all contribute to the example of expression we call stars.

Another dimension with mass accumulation is how we can deliberately initiate ourselves into Stardom. 

It is the 1 + 1 equation.
We have a massive amount of resources in our proximity and at our fingertips to draw or pull into ourselves. It is an integration of all that exists in our local here.
The star is an expression of that potential when we bring all of our self together.
We are what our galaxy consists of.

I also see this as an expression of the success principle called Massive Action.
If we do more, we are more, and we have more.
When we move ourselves often, we accumulate that potential.. that momentum.. and become massive ourselves.

More is another way of saying Mass.

Breathe it all in. Bring it together as the center.
Accept myself one and equal-to it all. Express myself.

In the time preceding my ignition, I merge and integrate with all the life around me.

"BE BEfore the BEginning" is a formula i've given myself to assist with the understanding that "Starting is Half the Battle" - it's in the words that BE comes first, BEING ~ BEGIN.

All stars practiced their expression's potential beforehand.

We prepare our Starting Point.

STARt with the Star in the Year of the Star: Day 1

I am going to write this blog equal-to how I would write my private journal explorations.
It will be first for me as the primary audience and only making considerations of a potential secondary audience as a "check" or an invitation to cross reference.

I invite you to open your mind and allow yourself to think freely and have fun playing with this information as we journey through the constellations of data in the word "Star".
2025 is the year of the Star per the EQAFE interviews from 2016.
Check those out for context.

Living Word Practice

Material support: there's EQAFE audio on uncertainty/doubt where it is explained that Reading/Writing/Speaking a word accesses specific dimensions of your mind/body/being.
I test myself using that as a cross reference.

*The approach is to allow myself to take inventory of all that comes up within me by writing it down.
*To access what is in me: I write, read, and speak the word and give space to see into my experience of myself.
*Once enough information is placed, more coherent articulations become available.
*I allow myself to play with everything no matter how it sounds to test it, even if it gets repetitive. 

🌠🌟⭐STAR⭐🌟🌠

- Consistent Exploding Self Expression.
- Light of Life 🕯
- Spark of Life✨
- Ignition/STARt 🔥
- STARting Point 
- Pointy Point 🟋
- Order of Higher (literally) Being [Constellation] 
- Stare at the Air to see the Star - Take the stAirs to Heaven.
- Out of Reach
- Above and Beyond
- Reach for the Stars
- Excellence is Rewarded
- Expression is Celebrated/Celebrity
- the Sun provides completely for All with it's Shine
- Sacrificed for Entertainment
- Wish upon a Star

A star ★ starts at a point • in the sky, "outer" space.
When we look up, they are tiny points where light and life begin as being born.
They represent points of physical birth.
The igniting/ignition(start) of a star is the beginning of it's self-expression.
The Spark of Life Begins the Being.
The Star at the 'Star't is Self Expression because the Star is the 'Arts'
Artist spells I-STARt, because I-Start expressing myself when I am an 'Artist'.

My Star-ting Point ✸ is My Self. The point that no one else is. The point where I am the only one capable of expressing. The only point that is all mine in every way - always and forever.
The point that no one else can determine. I am uniquely positioned to be my self - incomparable.
At the center of my very being. At the core of who I am.
The Star, the Main Character from the Start.
At the Heart of it All.

Focusing on the Star at the Start. What shines through? The lights in the sky that began it all.
Bring the Ligh through in the beginning. The Star is a point that starts.
The dot of light that Begins to guide us. Beings - Begins.
Within their Being is the Beginning.

More to come....