I forgive the Stars: Day 4

 Based on my past few days of writing on Star, here is some Self-Forgiveness Statements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in the myriad of magical information and knowledge that is spread out among the galaxy like the stars, entertaining all the fascinating feelings and fascination with witnessing or becoming a celebrity. None of it here as self on earth where it makes a practical difference in my day-to-day, moment-to-moment experience where I can place it into action. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my self expression and it's potential through/within/as lots of energy, where I could see in exploring the word Star as myself that a primary point i'm facing is how it's defined by this energy, this light, the 'out-of-reach' fascination with my 'my best life' being like a distant point in the sky or inside the form of a celebrity where I project all this positive feeling.. like once I live this or become this it will be a high of highs, everything I could dream of.. 
It's in that, I see self defined by an image detached from reality. I'm receiving a limited bandwidth of the actual reality of that expression but painting it to be a destination and a defining point for my whole existence - the light at the end of the tunnel is to become a celestial celebrity above everyone. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from and judge these celestial celebrities living in versions of heaven once I realize this separation and that I have been relating to them in comparison where I am the "have not", so then I demonize them instead of standing equal to them to actually understand the solution in/as/with oneness and equality of our self expression.

Placing the Stars within myself to forgive as them (realizing a prominent association with Stars for me is Celebrity):

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self definition as a Star to Celebrity-Status, where I know myself by the numbers of people that know my who I am/what I do/what I have... therein I am temporarily known only as long as I can keep their attention with the specific expression that enticed their mind in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the experience of having All Eyes on Me as the Shining Star Celebrity, where all energy is moving to as people react to me in their mind.. comparing themselves to me.. competing with me in their mind.. while I grow in popularity, gaining money, a following, and possessions because they are giving me attention and with that their energy.. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I am without All Eyes on Me, as i've given up so much to become somebody, to become a Star, a celebrity, that without the act.. the performances.. the preparation.. the recognition.. the following.. I feel like I am invisible and a nobody. Thus I lose all the great things I have or did and fade into irrelevance. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fading into irrelevance and becoming a wash up, a has-been, and no longer being known for the peak of my career, my expression, my domination of minds in the world consciousness... where if I am remembered at all it's for who I was - not who I am - and who I am is judged in comparison where i'm always a "lesser version" of my self now that I do not have the money and fame.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider these points before facing them for real because within this experience of the life of a celebrity is something I have faced in general with my own goals, endeavors, and network of people. With the desire to rise to the top and then the fear of falling once I have began the ascent. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider the point of consistency within a star that does not fail which is mass accumulation, or 1 + 1 even before the lights came on and the sun started blazing... the formation was through bringing it all back to self, taking what is here, integrating it and expressing self. The work we're known for is what we did with what we had and bringing out the best in ourselves. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming disconnected/detached/separated from the reality of/on Earth in the process of becoming a Star where I see the potential is that I distance myself from what is here to "Live the Dream" and Ascend to my version of Heaven where i'm constantly Celebrating as a Celebrity without a worry about what's happening on Earth... because that is the problem with what we experience in relationship to a Star is that it's NOT HERE.. so Heaven is still going on somewhere else in separated rooms/spaces.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a separation from myself in heaven, where ever that may be as the many versions I accepted, from myself here on earth.