Star Irrelevance: Day 6

From my last posts, this dimension of irrelevance has stepped forward.

The stars are irrelevant in that their influence on our mind is to further mislead and mystify us.

In the Desteni discord I said, ‘all the problems that come up in the Star are what is solved when we define/redefine/live the Star’

So, the problems are that it’s all mostly knowledge and information as entertainment for the mind to feel special, to feel powerful. It’s spiritual, mystical, other-worldly, ‘out of this earth’, esoteric, and that stuff is very enticing to the mind… but what does it deliver?

At the end of this, I want to bring it home. Place it here. To show it in a way that it’s in my human body, that’s accessible to all, that it begets another Star. A non-image based understanding, something I can feel and know in myself.

For now the star is a point to consider as a reminder, a goal. In that, it is a guide I place as myself for expression. The journey to is through this crap.

—-Self Forgiveness Statement —-

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to face my disdain and disillusionment with the Stars as the celebrities and the mystification of night lights, where I just see/feel the bullshit and don’t want to hear it or think about it, but at the same time I know there’s something to these things as I’m enticed by it from time to time..

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to sort out my relationship within the word Star and the constellation of words that come up looking into it.. such as Celebrity, Fame, Specialness, Power, Mystical, Knowledge, Secrets, etc..

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand how I have separated myself from the Stars where, for example, I have this experience from writing about all of this that could be put into statements like, ‘I don’t want to bother with this.’ or ‘this is all bullshit’ or ‘this was designed to distract me’… as I look closer at what’s going on in all this information it’s like realizing the life of a celebrity behind closed doors is actually very dysfunctional in exchange for their stardom.. the sacrifice of substance/life to achieve all of it is grosser than most realize.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the reality of a Star in our current definition is not very positive and all the great things we project onto them is actually an ugly truth as well.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider all that really exists within us as the Stars and the becoming of a Star, that is really who we are, that is not just the positive, dreamy ideals we know as the picture presentation of their existence.. which is a fraction of what is really within and behind the existence of a Star that we take for granted.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to extend that consideration to myself, where the positive presentation of myself that many people know takes for granted all of who and what I am behind that which is not seen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in all the irrelevant information and knowledge that feels so interesting and special to explore as I seek out the ‘power of a star’ or the ‘key to living star’ in the network of knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be Starstruck by the Stars, unable to see the reality and way forward within the Stars as I’m stupified in amazement by the expression I’ve consumed like a drug to get starry-eyed on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in infotainment, where I put on a show of the stars by showing off what I know about who we are as stars.